June 2010
1 post
Nothing I can say or do can change anything. I have so much to say but deaf ears are listening. I can show you the world but you need to open your eyes. You will continue to walk your path and I will fall behind.
I know nothing, I am only Mother.
May 2010
2 posts
Secrets eat you alive
No matter how well you think you can handle something, it will slowly devour you from the inside out. It can eat at your heart, your head and even your soul. It can make you broken. And no matter how bad you feel, you can come to me with your secret. You are never alone. And you will not be judged.
March 2010
2 posts
February 2010
10 posts
“If you talk with the animals they will talk with you and you will know each other. If you do not talk to them you will not know them, and what you do not know you will fear, What one fears, one destroys.” — Chief Dan George
1 tag
The Wolf Ceremony
I wanted to give something of my past to my grandson. So I took him into the woods, to a quiet spot. Seated at my feet he listened as I told him of the powers that were given to each creature. He moved not a muscle as I explained how the woods had always provided us with food, homes, comfort, and religion. He was awed when I related to him how the wolf became our guardian,...
January 2010
4 posts
He's just a hole in an old sweater
I find myself holding on to an old sweater. You know the one, it has a hole, and a distinct stain. But I loved it, and I liked the way I looked in it. But it has become unusable, it shrunk and is pilled.
So why do I continue to hold on to it. Is it the good memories of things I did, places I went, times that I shared?
Then there was the bad things that happened. The stain happened when I...
December 2009
1 post
feeling helpless
I wish I could help you, but you won’t let me.
November 2009
3 posts
“The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone.” - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Please,
don’t leave me alone
October 2009
4 posts
It amazes me
As strong of a person you are, you are really weak. I wish you could see the person I see. I wish that you can tell yourself everything will be alright. I need to know that it will. I want to see you make something of yourself. I want to see you happy. I need that flame to ignite deep inside you to fulfill your desires. You have to go get it, it’s not coming for you. And this, I...
This is what I want
I want the truth.
I want you to talk to me.
I want you not to be upset with lots of things I do.
I want you to trust me.
I want you to be whole.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
the time is creeping upon us all. We no longer can ask this question any longer. But then, will we ever grow up.
August 2009
10 posts
The agoney of August
This month has torn me apart. It has shown me the reality of what is to become. Besides going through one of the the most emotional mortality checks, my biggest fear was also presented to me.
I will be alone one day. I have already had 1/3 of my life disappear. But the other part is just a matter of time. With the erruption of words that spread between us, I feared I was losing you sooner.
...
I ned to be more creative again
sewing, beading any one?
it's a sad thing
I tried my hardest to teach the best qualities of humanity into my girls. Respect, kindness, forgiving and giving. It all seems to have backfired on them. They get taken advantage of, used and abused. And not just by strangers. Because of my respect for them, I remain silent. Maybe I should have let them grow up in the cold unloving enviroment that I had. (not you Grandma) Could this have...
did i forget to say
I hate money and all that comes with it.
Don't let it continue
By backing away
by letting it happen
by being afraid of a backlash
You have just learned your lesson in an abusive relationship. It doesn’t help you, and it sure doesn’t fix the stress. I can never get better, it will only get worse. You see it happening.
Don’t be a Bully. It’s not pretty.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
I sometimes would like to take a step outside myself and be someone else. It’s hard sometimes being the parent. Your children look at you with different eyes. There will be a time when you come to know that I am here for you.
I have tried to break the circle of how I was raised. I did not have parents that were concerned in anything I did. I never once heard the words I wanted. The...
July 2009
1 post
